i am, i can, i will, pause
[from a second wave – poetry]
i promise to space out my love letters to you
over months, years, etc. onward
i’ll remember to pause
to breathe
to ask
i know i am full of myself
i drop emotional land mines everywhere i go
and when someone is tuned differently
my enthusiasms can be disorienting
i cannot withhold
i won’t silence
the flow
magic
love
but i can hold the spaces in between
the inhalation
the pause
the release
the quiet
i’m comfortable
awaiting
what’s next
without trying to figure it out
i’ve learned this
over many years
i do not know
i cannot see what’s next
i only see you
and feel me, now
and it is this i attempt to capture
shining a light on the sliver
of hope
the shiver in my soul
is like a tuning fork
i hum when i resonate
i will sing songs
always
i will profess my love with a touch
and
i
listen
it is not all about me
never is
it is not even about “we”
something bigger is at play
supra super uber meta
i listen on all channels
and when i’m in the zone
i can cease the flow in my mind
of words and melodies
and absorb
you
i am
a
learning
a
patient
individual
really,
i am
10-23-2014
image: une petite pause, sophie & cie, creative commons usage